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Thursday, January 21, 2010 @ 3:50 AM caleb~ Firstly..how come your posts on top got ur cute name with the heart mine dun have >:( Nvm I test test on top...see how it turns out >.> Secondly, I must change the lyrics of that song from 'you're a naughty girl' to 'you're a silly girl' liao. I seriously didn't know that you were thinking about this! Not because I don't know you well enough, but because we've talked about this before, and you didn't seem to have any problems broaching the subject. Moreover, I told you not to worry about this le...and since what I said is what things really are like, I never thought you'd interpret my words as a mere attempt to pacify you by telling you what you wanted to hear.... I never, ever regretted you silly girl!! Do you know how many opportunities to get together with another girl I had? I'm not showing off or anything, just trying to put across a point to you in a poignant manner so you won't ever forget and won't ever feel so down again over such a needless issue. Some were ordinary looking girls, inside and outside, some small, some bigger, some cute, some very pretty...and even though I told my friends who were consoling me at that time that I was going to find an absolute bombshell for my next girl, I chose you. Because in you I saw something more valuable than just good looks and figure. That you are so kawaii is a bonus to me. I'll rehash everything in the next paragraph for you so you reallyyyyy get it. Out of all the girls who came by, I chose you. Yes, Veronica....out of all the opportunities I could choose from, I picked the one that led me to you. And, my dear girl, please keep in mind that among my opportunities, is my ex. She didn't exactly 'come by', but I always had the option of sitting by and waiting for her. But again, of all the choices I could make, you know the one I picked in the end. It was a test of sorts at the start, trying to see if I could move on, trying to see if we could make this work. You know the results, coz you're still by my side. 你以经完全取代她在我心目中所沉浸拥有的地位了. (how? my chinese correct anot?:P) To be honest, as I did with my first gf, I still hold some fondness towards her, which puts her closer to me than the average friend. But if you asked me, right now, if I have ever wished that I wasn't with you so that I could go back to her, my answer is no. Again, let me refresh this for you: I have never ever considered or regretted or wished I wasn't with you so I could go back to her. Did you know I sing nothing but praises of you to my friends? Even if I didn't, my friends have eyes and can see. Where they frequently advised me towards the twilight months of my previous relationship to let go of her because she wasn't good for my emotional well-being, the comments I receive from them regarding you usually contain stuff like 'this one is better than the previous one', or 'this girlfriend is good'. And would I know it! They've only seen you once or twice, I've been with you for over a year now. I would be blind to miss something my friends can see from only one or two meetings, wouldn't I? Plus I've never seen the need to talk to my friends about girlfriend problems ever since I met you! So please my darling girl, don't be so silly xD...its not just that you need more confidence in yourself; you need more confidence in me that what I tell you is always the point blank truth. You know I do not like to mince words. Like I will say, don't like I will say. If what you really feared were true, I'd have blamed myself, then left you before I could cause you more hurt. But you don't see me self-remonstrating, do you? So again, please don't 胡思乱想. (I <3 the chinese fill in text! wahaha) You're not the first person to tell me you've changed ever since you've been with me. Both my previous exes told me the same thing too. I don't know why....but all had same situation...in the past, just meet bf can le...he close to other girls or want to go out etc, they won't be too bothered about it. But once they're with me, become easily jealous, very easily affected, want to stick to me like glue, like to sa jiao.... ~.~ Both commented to me that perhaps, being with me was the first time they truly fell in love...the other relationships were just 'like'...so not that bothered or emotionally involved. I'm a bit skeptical...in the past got around 8 bfs...all fake one meh? But they tell me those were 'play play' only...so i dunno. Just take it as it is lor. So if you are disturbed at the changes, don't be..i guess....coz 我习惯了! Haha. I told my mum about this last time, and she commented that it must be because I'm so lovable...lol~ v.v Seriously, you're the only girl who has ever done everything I've done together with me, in the time we've been attached. Whether it's simply because we share similar interests, or that you've really been putting in effort to participate in my activities with me, I just wanna let you know that I really, really appreciate it. Really! And it's one of the reasons I've come to love you so much, because everything I'm doing, I know I can do it, and enjoy it even more because I can include my loved one :D Love you~ |
HEARTS❤